Today is a cold day with the temperature being a crisp 36 degrees Fahrenheit. The chill settled into my bones and I trembled in the chill air. I shrugged into my sweater and hurried to get the kids ready and off to school. Then sitting down at my computer I began my morning.
Blogging has proven to be a slight challenge this past week. It has been one week since my friend passed away and it is incredibly difficult to focus on much of anything. A mix of emotions have been overwhelming, keeping me from performing even the simplest of tasks.
Two days ago I wrote her an obituary since she will not be remembered by any newspaper. I needed to provide her that type of closure. Provide myself that closure.
Yesterday I wrote about silver linings. It is difficult to look for the silver linings in such times as these. But still I must look for them. The darkness is difficult, the grief is strong. Yet I still write. Yet I still ink.
The next few days will continue to be hard as the grief remains. I struggle with tears even now as I write, remembering her words. “Girl, don’t you ever give up, for me, promise me, you won’t give up. Not your writing, not your drawing, not your love for nature and kids, don’t give up.” So for her sake, I will keep my word, and continue, and persevere.
Today I intend to persevere and work hard accomplishing as many tasks as I can. Tomorrow the kids only have a half day of school so it will be busy when they get off at noon.
Today I will smile. Today I will continue and not quit. Today is a new day.